I've only been blogging a little over a week (I think) and already I'm slacking off...geez! Sometimes it's hard to make myself do anything; self-discipline has never been my strong suit. A lot of the time, I'd be content to stare at a TV or computer screen or book all day; it requires very little brain activity. Nevertheless, I started this thing and I need to see it through, wherever that may lead me.
Now, one thing that may hold me up from time to time is lack of a good idea. Sometimes I just don't know what to write about. I feel like a lot of my ideas are lacking in creativity so I dismiss them, but then there's nothing left. So, for better or for worse, I'll write about whatever I think of. Now, on with the show...
I have very strange dreams (see, how creative is that?!). I know that statement could be said (with merit) by virtually every person on the planet, but I happen to think that my dreams are especially strange. There are times when I wake up after having such a dream and, after the initial waking up period, where the dream still feels very real, I think, "What the heck?! Why did that seem so real because it was completely stupid!" I do have a few recurring dreams that probably are universal. I used to dream all the time (though not so much lately) that I am naked in a public place, but my naked dreams are very specific. First off, I'm not completely naked, just topless. Also, I'm always in school, between classes, and the bell rings for class to start. I ask my friends if they have anything I could borrow: a sweater, sweatshirt, anything. And even if they are wearing multiple layers, they always say no. So I go to class with a notebook or sheet of paper covering my chest and that's pretty much it.
Another dream I have a lot is also school-themed. I'm still in college and, somehow, I've gotten to the end of the semester and have managed to not go to a particular class all year (or have only gone a few times). It's usually a science or math class (typical) and apparently it didn't concern me much all through the year, but in the dream I start to freak out because the final exam is nigh, along with the final grade, and I worry that I'm going to fail. I think I've read that the "naked in public places" dream has something to do with the person hiding something or not being completely upfront and worrying that he/she is going to be found out. Not exactly sure what the other dream may mean, though it probably has something to do with feeling like I'm getting overwhelmed by responsibilities that maybe I've been neglecting. That is complete conjecture on my part, but it kinda makes sense.
Then there are the dreams that really mean nothing. Again, I've read or heard that these random dreams are the way that our mind/subconscious/whatever manages to clear out all the crap that's accumulated over time. That makes sense to me because most of the time these random dreams contain things that I haven't thought about for ages but have probably been lingering in the ol' noggin all along. The most recent random goody I can recall is truly bizarre. I dreamed that I was with a group of friends and we were trying to find a specific winery (unnamed in my mind). I'm driving on the interstate and take an exit that I'm not familiar with, then get off on some unknown road and don't know where I'm going. I call my sister (that renowned sage of wineries) to see if she knows how to get to our destination but she doesn't answer the phone or my texts. The most random part of the dream is one of the friends with me. It's Marcus Milburn, a guy I went all through school with but haven't seen or spoken to him since high school. In the car, we discuss the fact that neither of us has a boyfriend/girlfriend (don't know if he's single in real life or not) and, apparently, Valentine's Day is coming up and we had made some kind of agreement that if we were both unattached for the holiday, we would be each other's Valentine. Now we're all ambivalent about it. Anyway, we end up just driving along and that's all I can remember. All together now: WHAAAAT?!?!
I have no words for what the heck this is about, but I can't think of any better explanation than my mind wanting to clear out Marcus, Valentine's Day, and wineries. I'm happy to get rid of Marcus and Valentine's Day (no offense to my old friend, but it has been years and he's just not part of my life anymore), but I'd rather hang on to wineries if it's okay with my brain. Perhaps this means I'll have to visit a winery soon to recover its presence in my mind...if there's a better excuse than that, I can't think of one!
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